This is amazing and it works!!! MAGICAL!!! [24 May 2005|07:56am] Think of a letter between A and W. Repeat it out loud as you scroll down. Keep going . . Don't stop . . Think of an animal that begins with that letter. Repeat it out loud as you scroll down. Think of either a man's/woman's name that begins with the last letter in the animals name Almost there........ Now count out the letters in that name on the fingers of the hand you are not using to scroll down. Take the hand you counted with and hold it out in front of you at face level Look at your palm very closely and notice the lines in your hand Do the lines take the form of the first letter in the persons name? Of course not....... Now smack yourself in the head, get a life, and quit playing stupid online games! Don't tell the secret to others, just repost this! Smile & have fun! Canuka's SEXY. 1 ♪ dance.

::YAWN:: [26 Apr 2005|10:41am] [ mood | aggravated ] I havent updated for such a long time. I havent had time and i didnt really feel like it. Plus im grounded so i cant use the computer. Well, not much has been going on with me that has been big. Im really pissed off at myself becuz i just fuck up everything that i do. I cant get anything right. I fucked up my grades, i fucked up my family life, i fucked over my friends, and i just fucked up my body. Im sick, and tired, and i just want to get out of this whole that i dug for myself. I cant take it anymore!!! I want school to be over with and done. I was laying in bed last night thinking to myself that i wanted to die, then i realized that i dont want to die i just want to be happy again. I used to be this happy person, and now becuz of everything that is happening to me, im not a happy person anymore. Im a sour bitch to everyone. Even people that i truly care about. Like Sarah. I love her and i dont know where i would be without her but i just act like such a bitch to her and i try to stop myself but i dont know how to. Bitchiness is like a disease! And i have come down with the disorder. 1 ♪ dance.

[01 Mar 2005|08:23am] I AM SO FUCKING STRESSED OUT I THINK IM GOING TO SCREAM AT SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE WAY TO FUCKING MANY THINGS GOING ON IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW AND I CANT TAKE IT!!!!! I am in trouble with my director becuz im not going to be at 2 rehersals for shows and i accidentally showed up late last saturday becuz i didnt know i needed to be there. well g2g to FCAT!!!! dance.

[27 Jan 2005|08:12pm] [ mood | artistic ] Today was early release day and me and Sarah went to Dadeland and i went into claires and spent like 40 dollars lmao. But i bought Sarah some stuff then we came home and ate and talked to robbie on the phone and ROBBIE GOT HIS PERMIT!!!!!! YAY WE ARE BOTH DRIVERS!! isnt it scary??? lmao jk. Well we are playing the card game of truth or dare and there are some pictures coming up later then i killed the pizza things we ate. Lmao. WE BOUGHT TOXIC WASTE AT CLAIRES!!!!!! no not really its just this really sour shit that is really really really super sour. well ima add some pics now. Oh yea and took these sticker pictures at Limited Too and we came out so white we look almost transparent. ( read more ) 1 ♪ dance.

R.I.P BEN, JEREMY, STEPHY, AND DR. DALE MATZA. YOU ARE GREATLY MISSED [23 Jan 2005|06:57pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | nothing ] Im so bored that im about to go read a book!!! I know crazy but thats wat happens. Well, i decided to update on whats going on in my life. I got my permit and ive been driving around with my mom and im actually proud of myself cuz today i drove from church to Blockbuster and home again and that consists of a three lane road and i did (i thought) very well!! YAY FOR ME!!! Well, yesterday was the tribute performance for Ben Matza and Stephy Matza. It was very very VERY sad. It was at actors playhouse and the miracles kinda hosted it. A couple people sang and we watched movies of Ben and Stephanie in performances. It was hard but i think it kinda helped me get through this whole thing. I got up on stage and talked about a couple of memories i had with Ben even though i didnt want to. It was weird something was pulling at my heart to just get up and talk even though it was really hard for me. Michelle, Ben's voice teacher, got up and sang "FOR GOOD" from Wicked and I realized the true meaning of those words. " Ive heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason bringing something we must learn. And we are led to those who help us most to grow. If we let them and we help them in return. Well, I dont know if I belive thats true. But I know im who I am today becuz i knew you. Like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes the sun. Like a stream that meets a boulder half way through the wood. Who can say if ive been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been cahnged for good. It well may be that we may never meet again in this life time, so let me say before we part, so much of me is made of what i learned from you. You'll be with me like a hand print on my heart. And now whatever way our stories end, I know you have rewritten mine by being my friend. Like a ship blown from its mooring, by a wind off the sea. Like a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant wood. Who can say if ive been changed for the better? But becuase i knew you I have been changed for good." This song is saying everything i have ever been thinking about. I just havent been able to put it into words. Well, im going to go before i cry again. Who ever is reading this PLEASE remember. DONT EVER TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THE MOMENTS YOU ARE EXPERIENCING. PEOPLE CAN COME AND GO IN AN INSTANT AND IF U NEVER GET THE CHANCE TO THANK THEM FOR EVERYTHING THEY HAVE DONE THEN YOU WILL NEVER GET THE CHANCE TO FOR A LONG LONG TIME. ALSO, KEEP IN MIND THAT YOU ARE NOT IMMUNE TO HORRIBLE DISEASE OF DEATH. MAKE WISE AND SMART CHOICES IN YOUR LIFE BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT IT IS OR HOW LONG IT TAKES, YOU WILL EXPERIENCE THE CONSEQUENCES!!! 1 ♪ dance.

[11 Jan 2005|08:21am] I have realized that im not going to let pointless shit bother me like i used to let it. I dont care about what happened and yes i was hurt but now i realized that non of my true friends would or did do that to me so i would just like to point out the immaturity of the situation. Well, im gonna go to my next class now. Peace 1 ♪ dance.

[09 Jan 2005|04:15pm] [ mood | irate ] I did NOT write that last entry!!!! I have no idea who did considering i have this password protected. You must have to know me very well to know about my song preferences and to know about my birthday adn my extra curicular activites but what u obviously didnt know is that i have feelings and i would never say anything that was just said in that entry. I would like for the person who did it to tell me and have no fear of doing it. This hurt in such huge amounts and I know that none of my friends would want to do that to me. If u have any respect for a persons feelings, which obviously u dont, then u need to comment to this entry and tell me who the fuck you are! What kind of a person are u, whoever u are, to go into someone elses journal and write such a whorific statement. This hurts not only because of the content of the comment, which i suppose was written by the same person as the entry, but because of how low you must feel is a nessecity to go. I find you, whoever u are, to be a heartless, non-caring, and disrespect bitch. I am pretending it is a girl in this situation becuz only a girl would dive down so deep and so low to find places of sensitivity. STAND UP AND FACE YOURSELF!!! TELL ME WHO WROTE THIS ENTRY AND COMMENT AND DO IT AS SOON AS U CAN. 12 ♪ dance.

miracles today! [08 Jan 2005|01:16pm] [ mood | ditzy ] [ music | Lala-Ashlee Simpson ] I'm very exited to be going bak to miracles after like forever! i get to see everybody whom i luv, and i get to see sarah and everybody else again. i bet i will get loads of presents cuz it was my bday on the 4th n everybody from miracles loves me!!! Ive been wondering....what is love? what is life? what is everything? why are we here? why do we think? why do we ask questions? exactly. thank you for ur generus donation. goodbye. 4 ♪ dance.

[06 Jan 2005|08:10am] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | "Love me for me" - Ashlee Simpson ] Wow, yesterday me and sarah were very crazy. lol. I swear though she wrote all the weird parts about lesbian sex lol. W/e doesnt matter. Well, i just took my computers midterm and my teacher is so disorganized that she forgot to give us the actual test!! She is such a loonatic. Oh well i left my fucking biology homework at home so im shit out of luck. BIG TIME!! Well g2g do nothing. Byez IM EXHAUSTED!!!!!! I NEED SLEEP!!!!!!! dance.

[04 Jan 2005|07:56pm] ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE IT WHEN ITS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!! HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY FOR ME!!!!!!! AH!!!!!!!!! 1 ♪ dance.

[11 Dec 2004|04:05pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | Amanda laughing ot her book in the background!!! lol ] Well nothing really amazing happens in my life and when it does then it is followed by either rejection or pain. Last night i cryed myself to sleep. Im not depressed or anything but i just needed to cry out my emotions. I thought that this week was going to be one of the best weeks of my life but then it kinda wasnt. I dont know. I need sleep desperatly. I am running on 3 hours of sleep a night and i dont know if im going to be able to do this anymore. Well Jesse, the assistant stage manager for ON THE TOWN at New World, passed out last night and now today i have to be assistant stage manager and i have never seen teh show or anything so i dont know what im going to be doing but w/e i will do my best. So that is what im going to be doing tonight until God knows how long and then i have to sing tomorow in Church so i have to get up really early. UGH!!!!!!!!! No rest for the wicked!!! wait, is that how the phrase goes??? I dont know and frankly right now i dont really care. I want to go to sleep!!!!!! Ok, goodnight. 1 ♪ dance.

[29 Nov 2004|08:12pm] [ mood | quixotic ] Well my weekend was pretty cool. I didnt do anything special. Wednesday: I went to Beauty and the Beast at Actors playhouse, it was soo good. Then I went to the back door and met everyone and talked to friends of mine that were in the play. Then went to McDonalds cuz me and Sarah were desperate for Ice Cream. Thursday: It was thanksgiving and i cooked and spent it with my grandma. Friday: I went to doctor and I got 7 BLOOD TESTS!!!!!! I HATE SHOTS!!!! Then i went to THE POLAR EXPRESS with stephen and it was a very touching movie. lol. Then i bought stephens present ($1.99 pair of socks at the gap) and took him into Victoria's Secret and we looked at thongs, well, he was in his happy place and i was looking at thongs. lol. Saturday: ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm im going crazy cuz i cant remember what i did. Sunday: went to church adn teh falls with Lauren grey and Shelby. We told the peopel @ fridays the it was laurens birthday without her knowing. So shelby got free ice cream. lol. Well, im in school adn i dont like this but i have to go math. Byes dance.

[24 Nov 2004|07:53pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Gabriels Music through his headphones ] "The time of day isnt wat matters, its wat you need to do and get done." -Albert Einstein (Im bsing u, i dont know who said that) Well, the past couple of days have been pretty good. Today is our last day of school before Thanksgiving and right now I am in 1st period and im suppossed to be doing some typing shit but i find it pointless so im not doing it. I was thinking aobut how last year i wasnt that unhappy. I kinda miss Southwood, as much I cringe to say that. But i do miss being the oldest and having people look up to you. The only people now that are doing any looking up is us. I hate that there is this mason dixon line between straight theater and musical theater!!! We are here to be a family and to work together and when people cause all this bullshit drama just to get a high place on the totem pole(wierd analogy lol sry) Well, im bored and this isnt really entertaining me as much I thought it would. So yea. Also, I love you Brittany and remember I always will. Think about wat i said on your journal, i hope it will help a little bit if not more. dance.

[20 Nov 2004|06:51pm] [ mood | That little guy is so cute!!!! ] [ music | Wicked ] "No day but today" -Rent I went to Rent with Shelby on Friday night and it was.......AMAZING!! I was crying the whole show and I was like holy shit this is really powerful. It was awesome. I got a t-shirt, I love it!!!! Well, then we came home and stayed up until like 3 and David came over to get a school picture of me and because I wanted to see him. I miss him alot. I wish we could hang out and now have to worry about my parental units. I LOVE YOU!!!! Well, Friday was a great day!! I got to school and all my periods were really easy and we didnt really do anything major. I went to lunch with Clara, as usual, I love her, and i went to Jazz. I was talking to Sandra, our teacher, and I was asking her how to wear in pointe shoes(I GOT NEW ONES), because the last ones I had I just put them in the door way and closed the door on them and they broke in like that but these are alot harder cuz they are a different make. She told the only way is to really just wear them adn use them. So I asked her if I could wear them on Monday for Ballet class, and she said YES!!!!!!!!!! She also said that she was gonna bring hers and stuff!!!!!!!!!! SHE IS COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know that people dont like her but the reason they think she is a bitch is becuase she pushes us to do our best and if we dont do our best she pushes and pushes until we do. Thats the only reason why she comes off as a bitch. W/e so yea Im so happy that I can bring them and use them and wear them!!! Tonight I have to babysit from 7:30 to 11:00 and I am soooooo tired. It's 2 of them. One is in 3rd grade and the other is in 1st I think. A girl and a boy and they are so well behaved that it's a pleasure to watch them. Well, I have to get ready to leave, I will update in a day or so. dance.

[18 Nov 2004|07:58pm] [ mood | crazy ] I've been thinking forever about a phrase and I knew it was something but i didnt know what it was from. I finally figured it out that i was from West Side Story. The phrase was "A time to love and a time care". It was so annoying and i couldnt figure out what it was from. Well today is early release and we get out and 12:25 bitches!!!! lol. Well, IM GETTTING MY NEW POINTE SHOES TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! Well, thats the only thing that I am doing today besides doing a fucking lab report that I dont want to do. W/e then i think i have to go to the doctor. My mom wants to put me on the pill. Isnt that the funniest thing you have heard. IM NOT SEXUALLY ACTIVE!! Y do i need a fucking pill. W/e yea well, im bored and i dont want to type in my computers class which is where I am right now. Well, Im gonna go and yea. Brittany i will get a picture of that guy that thinks your hot for you. 1 ♪ dance.

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